Sunday, November 13, 2016

Song of the Week: "Everybody Knows"

Well... shit. First Clown Hitler wins the election, and then Leonard Cohen dies, so it's been one hell of a shitty, shitty, shitty shit week. I had a bit of a panic attack on Tuesday night; my wife had a real panic attack a few days ago. This is a lot of adjustment, and I feel really hollowed out right now, which is why I haven't really been posting and just distracting myself with Tumblr and television. Everything seems so damn frivolous now, in a new America of emboldened hate. All of my black friends, gay friends, Muslim friends, trans friends, every woman I know, every poor person I know... I'm so fucking pissed off. The thing I despise the most, bullying, is being enshrined as governance. It's being paired with ignorance and called a plan for the future. On the other hand, I'm handling it better than my wife, because part of my depression is just always expecting the worst. And the worst happened. And it will get worse. And I don't want to hear about it from anyone.

And then 2016, which took Bowie and Prince, takes another musical genius. Rest in peace, Leonard. I know you were sick for some time, but you got out while the getting was good--something I contemplated myself very seriously on Tuesday night.

Fuck this species. I'm rooting for its destruction. They don't care, so why should I?

This song seemed appropriate.